Not just about weight loss.

So this blog was originally intended to be strictly about my weight loss journey but I've got other things going on in my life that I sure could vent about too. Complain, vent, talk out.. Whatever.. I will post more later.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Really irritated...

So I haven't been on here in a while and I've been majorly slacking. I know I've got to step it up and make changes and that is so much easier said than done. My last few weigh ins have brought no real change which is why I haven't posted. Much like today I am only down half a pound. To me it isn't enough to be worth mentioning.

I went to the doctor this past Saturday and had blood work done. My doctor checked my cholesterol and my glucose. The results weren't good. I had eaten breakfast on the way to the doctor so I am fairly certain that weighed heavily (no pun intended) on the results. My glucose came back as 130. That right there requires me to fast and go back for more blood work. I am going back for that in two days. Cholesterol was 204. It should be under 200 but really I'd like it to be less than that. My good cholesterol was 38. My bad cholesterol was 122 which should be under 100 and my triglycerides were 219 and they should be under 150. Talk about bad news. When I go to the doctor in a few days I will be addressing those results as well. It was really an eye opener. I must stop eating fattening foods. I don't want to die especially not from heart disease at such a young age. I am only 25, 26 soon and I have a child I want to see grown and grow.

Now to why I am so irritated... The last two mornings I have been walking with a family member before getting ready for work. Well when I was in to see the doctor she suggested riding my bike. She feels this would be a good exercise for me because I can't get my speed up, my heart rate up and it won't be as hard on my joints since I am carrying all this extra weight. Sooo, I suggest riding bikes this morning while at dinner last night. When I made the suggestion to my family member she said she would do it but I could tell she really wasn't that into it. I didn't push the subject since she said she would. Well the morning is here now and she isn't going to ride her bike because it is still a little bit dark. It is getting lighter as I write this. I knew she would flake out. Really pisses me off. Well I didn't want to walk today and she did so I asked another family member to walk with her so she didn't have to go alone. Now I won't be doing my morning exercise because I have no sitter for my little one. Next I will just say "I'm still going to go. I have to do this for myself." I am ranting and rambling but I figured that's what blogs are for.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Weigh In 4

Well today it has been four weeks since I started and I have to say that I didn't stick to the bars like I should have. I am weighing in today at 292.5 lbs. That is a weight loss total of 7.5 lbs. I could have done far better and been down more but that is a step in the right direction.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Weigh In 3

So this morning was Weigh In 3. I wasn't so sure how that would go because I am still struggling to change the habits I've had for so long.

But, the good new is I am down two pounds from last week. Last week I was at 298. This week I am at 296. It isn't as much as I would like but I really can't complain given I've messed up.

Hopefully next week its doubled and I am down another four pounds or more. I am still in the beginning phases of weight loss and so I may lose more rapidly and because I have so much to lose it isn't uncommon to lose more.

Well, that's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Weigh In 1 & 2

So I haven't posted since last week which isn't so much of a good thing because I think it could have pulled me through some times I made the wrong meal choices.

I needed to post last Thursday for my first weigh in.

For the first week I lost 5 lbs. My starting weight was 300 and I dropped to 295.

This last week which is the second week didn't go well. Gah, why do I have to like bad food so much? LOL

I am up 3 lbs this week and weighing in at 298. Today is the start of a week and I need to get my act together and stop making excuses!!

I've got my bars packed and ready to go for the day. No going of course. I can do this! I will do this!

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Adjusting...

Well it is 7 am, an hour before I am supposed to eat and I feel like I am starving. I am adjusting to a new way of eating and not taking in as much as I was which was enough for two people. I've got to get through this. This is one of those times I probably would have stopped in the morning and picked up breakfast but I won't do it!!!

I'm going t stay on track. Its imperative to reach my goal.

Up until now I haven't said what my goal weight is. Ultimately, I would like to be around 150 lbs. That's half my current weight. Crazy, huh?

I am starting with a smaller goal and will continue to make goals along the way to reach the 150 I am shooting for. Right now, my goal is 40 lbs by the end of this 12 weeks. If I lose 60 I will be ecstatic.

Tomorrow is weigh in day so we will see what the scale says for my first week. While I am not expecting much because of my major flubs over the weekend I will be interested to see what the scale says.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Looking up..

Well I made it through the day unscathed.

I had my four bars (two meal bars and two snack bars) and just ate dinner.

Dinner wasn't so much on course as I would like to be but today really was a good day on the diet.

I had a homemade pulled pork sandwich and a small handful of potato chips. Not the lean and green I was going for but that's what was made and that's what I ate. For what I did eat, my portions were in check. For those that know me this is a huge deal because portion control is one of my down falls.

Well...

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Wanting to eat.. And feeling lame.

If you read my first post you saw that the way I was eating was outrageous to put it nicely. Way too much food is what it was.

Well this plan I'm on until late August is very different than how I was eating and my body is adjusting. During this period of adjustment I have felt hungry on more than one occasion and I feel pretty lame that I want to eat real food. When I say real food I guess I mean my favorite foods that got me to my overweight state in the first place.

I am eating real food. Its just hard because this transition is tough. I do not do my actual weigh in until Thursday but given my serious flop over the entire weekend I weighed myself this morning to see I was down three pounds putting me at a weight of 297. Gross, huh? That should be motivation enough to stop eating crap.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Yesterday was a flop.. Lame I know..

Yesterday was a super flop. Not only did I eat my dinner meal for lunch which was totally off and not right, I ended up having salad for dinner. Don't get me wrong, salad isn't bad but I was supposed to have a meal bar because of my lunch flub. Also, the salad had things in it I should have avoided but didn't.

I only drank about 40 oz. of water yesterday. My goal is around 75. I think the amount of water I drank on day one helped to tide me over.

And if that wasn't all, somehow I let myself have an ice cream cone. So, so lame.

I need to let outside influences stop getting to me. As selfish as it sounds this is about me and only me.

Today is a new day and I will be back on track, eat what I'm supposed to and hop back on the train to the NEW ME.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Already going down hill...

So it became apparent to me yesterday that I am an emotional eater.

I feel like things hit the fan with a friend and I don't know if our friendship will ever be the same. That's what I get for making a comment I thought was funny. Next time I will just keep my mouth shut.

After all the stuff with my friend, I wanted to eat my favorite foods. It made my stomach hurt.

So... I ended up eating my dinner meal for lunch and will have my meal bar for dinner which is fine given its Friday and that tends to be "Fend For Yourself Night".

My portions were not right and I ended up having extra carbs that I shouldn't have had but I will get back on track. I failed this meal but I will start over.

How lame is it that on day two I flubbed? I really suck I suppose.

After this, it is clear to me that I MUST do something other than eating when my emotions run high.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

What am I eating?

So yesterday was day one of the 12 week adventure that I'm on before turning over a new leaf and really making life changes. This couldn't come at a better time as a very close friend tells me. : ) Love you Bonnie Claire.

So, what exactly am I eating?

Yesterday I had:

Breakfast - Slim Fast Sweet & Chocolatey Almond Meal Bar

Snack - Slim Fast Double Dutch Chocolate Snack Bar

Lunch - Slim Fast Fruit & Yogurt Trail Mix Meal Bar

Snack - South Beach Peanut Butter Cereal/Snack Bar

Dinner - 4 Cups of Chopped Lettuce, 1 Orange Tomato, 5 oz. Shredded Chicken, And Fat Free Catalina Dressing

Today will look much the same with the exception of the bar flavors.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

Before Pictures

...Just a quick recap...
My starting date of this adventure is 06/03/2010 and my starting weight is 300lbs.
...Below are the "before" pictures...

I am excited to see what the follow weeks bring.

That's all for now,

Sassy Rae

And so the journey begins...

The purpose of this blog was to solely be the journey of my weight loss but I've got other things going on in my life that it just may a place where I rant too.

How cliche is it that I'm doing a weight loss blog? -lol- Like there are not already a ton of those. This is really for me to be accountable for my actions and choices and for those closest to me to follow if they choose. If you happen to stumble upon my blog and are interested in reading and following then please do so.

I've talked about losing weight for a long time. I get so hyped up and excited about it and then a day or two in I give up. Pretty lame eh? Yea, pretty much. It was suggested I post pictures for this blog which I will in my next post. This will be a vivid picture of the work I have to do and will put it out there for the world to see. Perhaps that will be motivation enough.

My starting weight as on 06/03/2010 is 300lbs. While I am working toward an overall lifestyle change, the first 12 weeks really are a diet. This diet, however, will not fail me.

My current plan is pretty simple and straight forward. A weight loss shake or meal bar for breakfast and lunch, two snack bars, and a lean and green (protein and veggie) dinner. Before you get the urge to go off on me about the nutritional value of this diet, two things you should know... 1) I really don't want to hear it : ) and 2) The way I've been eating was far worse for me than this venture I'm on for the next 12 weeks.

To break it down for you, this is what a day could have looked like for me before...
Breakfast - McDonalds
Two Sausage Egg McMuffins, One Hashbrown, and a Large Sweet Tea.
Snack -
One Bag of Gardettos Mustard Pretzels (Eaten Throughout The Day)
Lunch - A Three Entree Meal From Panda Express
Most Often - Steamed White Rice, Two Entrees of Broccoli Beef and One Entree of Kung Pao Chicken.
Dinner - Well that really varied. Its hard to say. This was a meal most often eaten at home with family and probably the healthiest of anything I ate in an entire day.

Wow, its so gross to actually type out what I was eating. So much food, so many calories. It's a no wonder I am the weight I am. But I am on my way. Following posts may include a more detailed look at the way I am eating for the next 12 weeks and going forward. This is, again, to keep me accountable for my choices.

That's all for now...

Sassy Rae